Sometimes I get weary of not being able to sleep in the positions I used to. I just can't. I know that it does affect how much sleep I get nights. I rarely have a really good sleep because I have yet to find what works best for me, from new position to perhaps different pillows. I get weary of the chore it is to get turned over from one side to the other or even from my back to either side.
Sometimes I forget what I have been through and its impact on my life and that fact that some things will never be the same. Sometimes I want to think that life is back to normal -- but it's not.
Sometimes I do think about the possibility that the cancer could return, maybe some place else. Sometimes I forget that I have a 67% chance of being here in 2017 and 33% of not -- not taking into account the fact that Jesus may come back before then.
Sometimes I wish that my joints and bones were not so stiff after a day at work. Not sure if it is the floors at school or my age or my genes or side effects of my medicine.
Sometimes I wish I would quit talking about my "battle." Is it because I need to? Is it because I don't want others to forget what I have dealt with and am dealing with? Is it because I have to remind myself of the reality of my life now?
Sometimes I think of the time when none of this will affect me anymore. God has promised there will be no more sickness in Heaven. Wow!
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The timeless theme, Earth and Heaven will pass away
It's not a dream, God will make all things new that day
Gone is the curse from which I stumbled and fell
Evil is banished to eternal hell
No more night, no more pain
No more tears, never crying again
And praises to the great, "I am"
We will live in the light of the risen Lamb
See all around, now the nations bow down to sing
The only sound is the praises to Christ, our King
Slowly the names from the book are read
I know the King, so there's no need, no need to dread
No more night, no more pain
No more tears, never crying again
And praises to the great, "I am"
We will live in the light of the risen Lamb
See over there, there's a mansion
Oh, that's prepared just for me
Where I will live with my Savior eternally
And there will be no more night, no more pain
No more, no more tears, never crying again
And praises to the great, "I am"
We will live in the light of the risen Lamb
All praises to the great, "I am"
We're gonna live in the lights of the risen Lamb
Written by Walter S. Harrah • Copyright © Warner/Chappell Music, Inc
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