VBS Was This Week

This week has been VBS at church.  It has been odd to have to not be involved, but I just am not up to it.  I have been going down for the closing portion of the morning just to see who all is there and get a sense of how things are going.

I really have not been feeling as perky as usual, this being the week after chemo.  I really can’t take deep breaths without coughing, and so I have to be careful about how quickly I move from here to there so that I do not have to “catch my breath.”  When I have to do that, I have to take a deeper breath than normal, and I get coughing, which makes me have to take deep breaths, which makes me still cough . . .  I have to work at not letting the coughing trigger my having to take deep breaths.  

I must admit that I am getting weary of all of this.  I am seven months into all of this, from my initial appointment to the mammogram to the ultrasound to the MRI.  Then came the meeting with the surgeon, two biopsies, diagnosis of cancer (two types), the glitch of the infested cyst on my back, the surgery, the pathology report results, putting in the port, and now chemo.

I just want to be done.  I remind myself that this is how is it – just deal with it!  I realize that the end will happen.  Two more chemo Mondays and that is done.

I remain thankful that God has kept me from having too difficult of a time with the chemo.