Decisions and Date

This morning Lori sent me out of the classroom to make the phone call I needed to make, the one to my surgeon to tell them what I had decided to do, after our discussion and meeting Thursday.  Julie (the nurse who had been in the room for that meeting) answered the phone.  After I said who I was, she said that I had been on her call list for today.  I told her that I had planned to call yesterday, but because of an after school meeting, I had run out of time.

I told her that after some time to think, read, and talk with Dennis and others, I had decided that I would go ahead with a double mastectomy but no reconstructive surgery (at least for now).  All I wanted to do was what needed to be done.

Julie remembered that Dennis has a scheduled trip which he is putting on hold until he knows more, as the date comes closer.  He has paid for the tickets to go, and so he is set to go if things fall into place and he feel comfortable leaving me.  Those dates are February 6-16 – they remembered. 

Today and Thursday are the days the office sets up surgery dates at the hospital.  Thoughts were that I would hear today sometime.  Although the office is closed at this time, it may be that the hospital calls me instead.  Either way, I will know the date by the end of the week.

I did not sleep well last night.  That seems to be the case when I am just not settled.  So, I went to school a bit tired; but that was all right.  I have no idea what to expect of me once a date is set.  Yes, reality will really set in.  As the date draws near . . .

I need to start to work on the letter to my parents.  Probably I will get that done the next few days.  That will not be an easy task.

God is giving me opportunities each day to share how my trust in Him is sustaining me.  Even today I had to chance to chat a bit with Lori’s pm sub.  Marena was a long-term sub (young) in the ELA 5 class I push into.  She happened to be covering that class from mid-November to Christmas vacation; so, she has known some of what was going on because I was absent so often.   So, it was comfortable to talk with her when we were in the class, no students.

I want to become more bold in sharing my faith in God, that although I may not understand why things happen, I know He will be there to help me through.