My Goal for Now

I have decided to put this as my primary goal:  To put my confidence and trust in a faithful God who knows my present and my future.  He knows why He has chosen this for me at this point in my life.  My natural tendencies are to say that . . .

·         I don’t need this now in my life, as things still are unsettled with my parents, especially my mother.  Couldn’t this wait for a later time?

·         This is for other people, not me.  Breast cancer does not run in my family (although in their older years, my mother’s sister had pancreatic cancer and her mother had some in her lungs).

·         Although I may want to question God, I do not do so in a spirit of anger; it is in an attitude of just not understanding.

I desire to be a witness to the grace that God gives His children in times of difficulty, if they place their trust in Him.  I want to be an example to Dennis’s unsaved family members, the people with whom I work, and even to fellow believers in my church as well as others I know.  I want to grow through this experience, too.

A time may come when I can look back and see how this experience changed me (other than physically) as well as others who are a part of my life.