I Did Not Get the News I Hoped to

The last time I had to receive difficult medical news (1985), I had been told to bring someone along with me, if I can.   Now, because of changes in medical protocol, you get no “heads up” on this.   Because I did not know this, I figured Dennis did not need to go as I had not been told I should bring someone with me. 

Today I was told that I have breast cancer, two types.  The left side, the one with the most problems, has been diagnosed as infiltrating lobular carcinoma; on the right, ductal carcinoma in situ.  To hear the word cancer used when talking to me about me seems unreal; but that is the truth.  Dennis made me say that word when I told him the news.

• What is to be done?   A double mastectomy.  Maybe consider reconstruction.
• Recovery time?  Two weeks for the mastectomy. Four more weeks for the reconstruction.
• My Initial Decision?    To wait on the reconstruction.  I might not want to do that.

I sensed a calmness around me as I heard this news.  I did make an effort to really listen to what was being said, although I know that I will get a copy of this information through the mail.  I know that what helped me stay calm, also, was that I was told that although things would be difficult at the start, the end looked promising.

Do I trust Dr. Bang?  Yes.  He is careful.  He is thorough.  He goes through things step by step.  He wants to be sure I understand everything he is telling me.  That was true December 12, when we first met; it was true today.

1. Probably the surgery will be done by the end of this month.
2. Will there be radiation therapy?   No
3. Chemo?   Not sure
4. Hormonal therapy?   Possibly  

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· “You will keep [her] in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You” (Isa. 26:3).

· “In quietness and confidence shall be your strength” (Isa. 30:15b).

I really am not sure what I think about all of this that is happening.  I wonder if I really realize what is happening in my life at this point in time. 

It seems, though, that God was preparing me for this news.  I spent an unusual amount of time yesterday reviewing the verses on my verse cards, the statements written on others, and just general reflections on God.